(The names have been changed to protect the identity of these people)
Ryan: What’s good with you
Eric: Honestly, sittin alone house sittin at my grandpas.
Really low point
Ryan: Ohh, Matt just mentioned that about your gramps place, you want me to bring some sixteen y/o girls over to cheer you up?
Eric: Who you with?
Ryan: On lunch at work so no one but taco truck guy
Eric: Hell ya, lol
idk. I Honestly jus dont know what to do with myself i guess
Ryan: Idk either
Eric: Whats the point of walking around this planet, full of all the bull shit chemicals that make up emotions.
I feel humans are actually a lower life form for the simple fact animals arent held back by eomotions.
Its instincts, then death.
id wish for that life, but it semms im depleted of anything that might register as anything close to instincts.
Im a domesticated house cat sitting on a plank in the middle of the ocean.
Sorry to vent
Ryan: No it’s cool I feel you at least you’re able to look at it in a way that the majority of the stupid people on this planet can’t, there just chems running through your brain making you “feel”
Eric: And its bull shit. Youd expect a few chemical reactions to be miniscual when going with all the other shit in the body.
Im in need of a lobotomy.
Ryan: No, you just need a vacation
Eric: Im stuck in a town that was once home, now a personal hell.
Too scared to leave but losing my mind every second im here.
Lobodomy sounds easier.
Ryan: That and a healthy outlet for your emotions
Ryan: Yeah.. You shouldn’t be scared to leave though, I understand why you are but ask yourself do you fear more the unknown or the monotonous knowledge of what every day holds in store for you
Eric: The unknown honestly.
Evrythings kinda shit right now,
but shit could always get worse.
Here atleast i know what shit im in
Ryan: That’s why I love you just when I think were on the same page you’re a step ahead
And yes it could be worse
Eric: trust me, im 30 steps behind.
And the thing i hate most is, i know my life isnt total shit, but id give evrything going for me at an instant to be with her.
Because of that i just dont really care about anything. So i see no good
Ryan: Is it safe to assume who her is, you see what your emotions choose to see look at it that way the good is all around you, you’re just missing it
Sorry to analyze
Eric: No no, im glad theres someone talkin to me about this shit, lol
Ryan: Wouldn’t want to be doing anything else
Eric: Ill hit you up soon man, we gotta fish or somethin
Ryan: Lol sure thing